Cry and laugh but you will always LOVE

This blog addressed to Mr. Jorge Patrick Danal

I'm his girl and I know that he is mine.

Quoted from my friend, Kim Arsenio via her text message: "NO MEN, NO PAIN. KNOW MEN, KNOW PAIN."

Last night when I was talking with him. Because for two straight days we are quarreling 'coz of our personal issues with each other like he feels that I don't care about him anymore, he misses me as being childish, I always choose my friends over him and so on. As for me, he's being arrogant all the time, he doesn't know how to listen, when to shut up when I'm talking to him.

Through out our conversation, I want to punch him, I want to punch on something or grab something hard and throw it right into his face 'coz I was freakin' angry at him. He also made me choose to whether work things out or leave him for good.

I was shouting, crying, trying to control myself and lowering my voice 'coz I don't want my mom to hear me and ask me of such things after. I badly want to end up that day, go to sleep, dream and wake up forgetting everything that happened during that night but I can't - I shouldn't, I must face him.

I let him rant all the things that he wanted to tell me, I listened to him. I tend to stay quiet and restrain myself from giving out any comments until he is finished. And as soon as he is done with everything I told him, "why do you choose to stay?" When you're saying that I don't appreciate the things that you are doing for me, for us. Why do you choose to stay with me whereas I'm pretty sure there are lots of girls out there who is more appreciative and caring than me.  And BANG! A moment of silence, no one's speaking. Then suddenly he answered' "shit naman oh! hindi kasi kita maiwan,"

The night ended up with laughters, sweetness and asking him to buy me Jawbreakers (our all-time favorite).

I admit it, I'm a bitch to him, outspoken, stubborn and ma-pride all the time. In the 4 years and countless months of having him by my side I can say that we've been through a lot of fights and quarrels and this is just one of those. And I'm glad that through it all, we were able to surpass every bit.

"I can be his source of laughter and happiness. His reason to smile every single day that I am with him.

I can also be the reason for his tears and sadness.

But most of all,

I am his only reason that he is full of love."

I'm Pamela Cabrera and he is Jorge Patrick Danal. I know that he is mine and I'm proud and happy to say that I am his girl.